Well now I’ve had 2 lots of chemo and the oncology, chemo and district nurses all say that how I feel in the first treatments is how I am likely to feel throughout, I kinda feel like I have things sussed. I’m tired more often. Yesterday I had to cancel a lunch appointment because I thought I might actually fall asleep standing up. But an hour and a bit of power nap set me straight for the rest of the day. I’ll probably go for a snooze in a minute, too. But that’s ok, I know what I need to do and how to plan my work and social life around it.
So now my mind is moving towards the op. My initial reaction to people telling me that they had friends/family who’d had breast cancer was, and it sounds horrible, disinterest. I felt frustrated and slightly ‘yes, well they’re not me and what they felt and did is not what I’ll feel and do’. I was adult enough to bite my tongue and realised that at some point I may want to call on these people for information.
That time is coming. I’m not so worried about the feelings side of this cancer lark. I know how I feel and those close to me do to (those who aren’t close to me…I am how I appear to be – happy mostly, tired sometimes, but forever positive!)
What I’d like to have contact with people about is mastectomy and reconstruction. The options out there, what surgeons have recommended, what people chose and why. I want good stories and also those where things went disaterously wrong. I hate research…if a client wants research done, I get someone to do it. It bores me. But this is important to me and I want to make the right decision.
It’s too early to start discussing with the hospital, I think.
I have pretty much decided already to go for a double mastectomy and I want reconstruction. It’s the when and how that I’d like to hear stories about.
So, if you know anyone who is happy to discuss their experiences, please get them to contact me…much appreciated.