Apart from the side effects which I seem to whinge on about, I guess people are interested in how it ‘feels’ to have cancer? If you’re not…waltz on by, I won’t be offended!
I am not talking about the emotional, for once! But the physical.
Well since it moved to the brain, what’s changed? Mostly the physical feelings do not really seem to be connected as such. The legs, the moonface, the tiredness etc.
But the bits that are connected are slightly odd, but relevant. One thing I notice is that when I type, I become very aware that words and text could actually go 2 ways. It is automatic, in the Western world, to just right left to right and that’s how it is. Suddenly when I write, I realise it could go the other way. I don’t and I don’t feel a need to or a desire to. But it’s a strange awareness.
Sometimes I get an almost nice feeling across my sinuses like when you have a blocked sinus and it’s clearing. I like it.
I get little lights very infrequently. Seeing the (yawntastic) film Avatar reminded me how many little lights I get now that I never used to. They’re my little fairies and I quite like them.
As my steroids reduce, I get a little ache sometimes in my neck, or a little ache at the back of my head. But it comes as soon as it goes.
That’s about it, I think. Maybe I’ll remember more and stick a note here when I do.
It’s really not too bad 🙂